tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-54948789404502447222012-02-17T04:10:08.597+07:00niblonkhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10200742135301112287noreply@blogger.comBlogger31100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5494878940450244722.post-27261483590910741692009-04-30T12:27:00.002+07:002009-04-30T17:28:40.258+07:00I really couldn’t understand when one day I found that I am an ELF <br />I really couldn’t realize that recently I become the one who is really addicted of being theirs, don’t want to find even one thing about them was left <br />I confess that firstly I just didn’t care much about them <br />I admit that even I cursed if I feel these kinds of symptoms <br />I do hate Super Junior when I know that I belong to their part without knowing! <br />How dare they are to steal half of mine, the deepest one, without asking! <br />No wonder that they gave me tons of happiness, miracle, and way for love… <br />No doubt that they make me feel such sensation of being loved… <br />No objection that they’ve made me dies of laugh, <br />When Leeteuk had to being in love with Kangin in Mini Drama… <br />When Heechul was imitating Tell Me Dance of Wonder Girls,,, <br />When Hangkyung was prank by other members in Super Junior Fullhouse… <br />When Yesung was failed to be the legend of the highest jumper in EHB… <br />When Kangin was angry at the moment that Leeteuk CS squirted water to wakening him up… <br />When Shindong was being upset at the moment Ari had a pee on his beloved motorcycle… <br />When Sungmin was being cute in front of noonas, while in front of his hyungs he’ll be so cool… <br />When Eunhyuk admitted that he ate the leftover food of another artist… <br />When Donghae was dancing like crazy on the stage… <br />When Siwon was failed to retaliate to put Kangin’s short off in EHB… <br />When Ryewook was trying to speak in pig language in 100 Songs Challenge… <br />When Kibum was crying at the moment he had to eat the hottest pepper in the world… <br />When Kyuhyun was being the king of NG in Mini Drama… <br />I can’t lie that I always cried, though… <br />A lot! <br />I cried when I saw they work that hard to present their best without any spirit declined… <br />I cried a lot when I know that between them and me there were such words like I’m yours and you’re mine. <br />I cried litters when they said that as long as the ELF are being happy with their performance, being tired and suffered is fine… <br />I cried the most when I’m sure that they’re born to shine, not to be mine! <br />Perhaps, they’ll never know how many thankful I sent to God that I found them, <br />Because when I saw my self in the mirror, I know that I didn’t deserve even to show that in my heart there is their totem! <br />Probably, they’ll never ever see how much they are meant to me, <br />Because they didn’t know how many tears that these eyes have dropped when I remember what impossible the world to make them one with me! <br />Maybe, they’ll never ever ever realize one simple yet important thing, <br />Because it seems that even the fate doesn’t allow them to see that at least there is me who is nothing! <br />I was down when one of my friend said that loving you is worthless. <br />He must be wrong since he didn’t feel this kind of speechless, this kind of breathless! <br />I was upset when couple of friends said that admiring you is tasteless. <br />They must be wrong since they’ll never know that by being like this is all I want the most, not less! <br />I can shout so loudly when a person asked me how I could love unreal people like crazy! <br />I can be sad so deeply when someone smiles sarcastically when he saw who is the only one I saw! <br />I can cry so badly when somebody insults you that much! <br />I by myself will never ever think that I want you like this… <br />I by myself will never ever predict that I can be this selfish… <br />It never be so beautiful till I stand in this our time, this nearly end of the time… <br />The time when I know that I love you more, an inch each second… <br />The more I love you, the more I believe in you, <br />The more I believe in you, the more I won’t let you go, <br />The more I won’t let you go, the more I feel that this love is really hurt! <br />Damn it that this love is really hurt! <br />Damn it that I love you painfully! <br />It has already hurt when I knew that they’re Super Junior and I’m just an ELF… <br />It has already painful when I realized that sooner or later, both they and I will leave or being left… <br />It’s more hurt when I read that next year Teukie will be on military academy, though he wants to be the leader of Super Junior still! <br />It’s more painful when I heard that Kibum will be focus on his acting career other than being Super Junior still! <br />It’s more hurt when I see that Kyuhyun prefer to manage a school, though he is too early to stop his career as a singer still! <br />It’s painful the most when I knew that Yesung will stop to sing since his father is sick recently, though he loves singing the most still! <br />Since that kind of dilemma has been a part of mine.. <br />I lost sometimes… <br />Till now I never ever know how to behave towards them and towards my own feeling… <br />I want to make them mine like crazy, yet in other line I don’t want to make their life messy… <br />I should let them go, back to their own life that probably they missed the most, yet without heard and see them even just for a while how my life could still goes… <br />Is it my entire fault for being an ELF? <br />Do I have to be guilty by myself? <br />Everybody… <br />Everybody, please tell me how I could release this love while that love is definitely has been penetrated under my skin till it can sprout up a rose! <br />Anybody, please tell me how I could try to hate you while loving you is one thing that I thanked of the most! <br />Just tell me to prevent this feeling flowing over like a river! <br />Just tell me not to be a lover! <br />Just tell me not to be myself! <br />Just tell me not to be an ELF! <br /> <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5494878940450244722-2726148359091074169?l=niblonklenik.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>niblonkhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10200742135301112287noreply@blogger.com15tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5494878940450244722.post-31620230573981533362009-04-23T13:29:00.000+07:002009-04-30T13:59:59.668+07:00Well, when i was angry, i will always be in a quiet-mode on...<br />Couples of friends have already known that whenever i got angry, they should stay away from me,,<br />They know that they have to let me in a loneliness,,and when i felt better, they will come back to me...<br />i think that i'm much better to be quiet when i'm angry...<br />i have reasons for doing that...<br />if i'm not like that, i will be exploded...<br />and i'm afraid that it will be more hurt anybody...<br /><br />well, do you think that it's a good way to reduce the anger?<br />or, do you have any other better solutions...<br />please, share with us...<br />thanks...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5494878940450244722-3162023057398153336?l=niblonklenik.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>niblonkhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10200742135301112287noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5494878940450244722.post-27048103094729810382008-06-18T19:13:00.000+07:002008-06-18T19:33:24.231+07:00<span style="font-family:courier new;"><span style="font-family:georgia;"><span style="font-family:lucida grande;"><span style="font-family:times new roman;"></span></span></span><span style="font-family:arial;">It's so complicated to describe 'bout myself,,<br />Like seeing the shadow of blue mirror,anyway,,<br />Just wanna say that i do love art,soccer,and freedom,,<br />I'm here because i also love writing,,<br /><br />Love?Not really necessary for me now,,But if there's someone who offers me a smile and love,sincere,,maybe i'll accept it by all mean,,<br /><br />Here,i just wanna share 'bout my experiences,thoughts,and my feelings of something,,<br />Nice to share with all of you,,,<br /></span></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5494878940450244722-2704810309472981038?l=niblonklenik.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>niblonkhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10200742135301112287noreply@blogger.com1